The title says it all really here I have to make a big apology for one of my entry's that has caused offence and upset. (THIS entry)
When I started diary of a monkey it was never my intention to upset, harass or offend anyone, and I am upset myself that it would appear that I have. Until it was brought to my attention today I didn't realise that comments I had made here were offensive and upsetting.
I have myself made the mistake of generalising and misunderstanding the situation mentioned.
Depression makes me see the negatives in situations, in many instances it causes the good things to be completely consumed by all the bad things that happen, thus leaving me with a negative view of the situation, this is what happened regarding that entry. This is in no way an excuse I should have thought more about the comments I made, but it defiantly clouded my view point.
All that is left for me to say is that I am truly sorry and have learnt from my mistake and will endeavour not to let anything like this ever happen again.
Wednesday, 26 March 2008
Retraction
Tuesday, 25 March 2008
Well hello there
Wow hi all i have to say i'm being rather tech-savvy here i'm writing this laying in bed on my mobile phone!
(the joys of predictive text)
so that nuget of vital information aside whats been happening i here you yell. Well in all honesty not alot! ,
currently i have massive amounts of work to do all of witch is rather dull.
right now i'm thinking i need to buy a wireless keyboard for my phone as typing this out ou a standard numerical keypad is making my hand hurt! Also right now i'm a little pissed off i'm currently in one of those moods were i just don't feel like sleeping its late and i should be asleep but i don't want to. Migu try some EFT, more about that later but for now i shall say good night and sweet dreams.
(the joys of predictive text)
so that nuget of vital information aside whats been happening i here you yell. Well in all honesty not alot! ,
currently i have massive amounts of work to do all of witch is rather dull.
right now i'm thinking i need to buy a wireless keyboard for my phone as typing this out ou a standard numerical keypad is making my hand hurt! Also right now i'm a little pissed off i'm currently in one of those moods were i just don't feel like sleeping its late and i should be asleep but i don't want to. Migu try some EFT, more about that later but for now i shall say good night and sweet dreams.
Sunday, 16 March 2008
What is it with pubs?
Now you may remember a particularly blog entry I published last year called hats and pubs in which I discussed the issues faced by your everyday photophobic when trying to go out!
Well I hate to say it but the pubs have annoyed me yet again for there lack of thought regarding policy.
After playing Goalball on a Saturday me, Dave and the coach go for a drink and usually food, we go to the same pub pretty much every week because it has really comfy sofas, and is cheap!
I however am starting to get slightly irritated by the pub for several key reasons. At roughly 7pm every Saturday night they dim all the lights down, turning some of them off in the process, this is bad. one week I was mid meal and the light that I had cunningly sat under expecting the usual dimming was turned off. I quite like to see what I'm eating given that I have that ability, I no I'm lucky but I want to use it to its full potential.
There bouncers also arrive about this time on a Saturday evening we have had several unfortunate run ins. The first time we all went to the pub I was upstairs after visiting the ladies and I was lost trying to find my way back downstairs with loud music and flashing lights, not to mention other people all around when a guy walked straight in to me , somehow straddling my moving long cane in the process, I nearly broke the guys neck, it was his fault but still, I worry about the possible law suites.I noticed the florescent yellow arm band and that he was a bouncer. he was really nice about the whole thing and showed me how to get down stairs.
The other problem with the bouncers is there chosen standing location when attempting to exit the pub (sometimes a little worse for were) they have an unfortunate habit of standing right in front of the door, for obvious reasons I grant you. The only problem is that the pub has a flight of stairs to go down before you get to the door and then two more steps once your out. for some reason which is beyond me the bouncers chose to stand leaning up against the hand rail. Now for someone with my bio-mechanic oddness has enough trouble trying to navigate going down stairs at the best of times but in the dark and with no handrail doesn't bare thinking about. alas I have to try and get the bouncers attention so I can get them to move, failing that a gentle prod with the cane does the trick.
Well I hate to say it but the pubs have annoyed me yet again for there lack of thought regarding policy.
After playing Goalball on a Saturday me, Dave and the coach go for a drink and usually food, we go to the same pub pretty much every week because it has really comfy sofas, and is cheap!
I however am starting to get slightly irritated by the pub for several key reasons. At roughly 7pm every Saturday night they dim all the lights down, turning some of them off in the process, this is bad. one week I was mid meal and the light that I had cunningly sat under expecting the usual dimming was turned off. I quite like to see what I'm eating given that I have that ability, I no I'm lucky but I want to use it to its full potential.
There bouncers also arrive about this time on a Saturday evening we have had several unfortunate run ins. The first time we all went to the pub I was upstairs after visiting the ladies and I was lost trying to find my way back downstairs with loud music and flashing lights, not to mention other people all around when a guy walked straight in to me , somehow straddling my moving long cane in the process, I nearly broke the guys neck, it was his fault but still, I worry about the possible law suites.I noticed the florescent yellow arm band and that he was a bouncer. he was really nice about the whole thing and showed me how to get down stairs.
The other problem with the bouncers is there chosen standing location when attempting to exit the pub (sometimes a little worse for were) they have an unfortunate habit of standing right in front of the door, for obvious reasons I grant you. The only problem is that the pub has a flight of stairs to go down before you get to the door and then two more steps once your out. for some reason which is beyond me the bouncers chose to stand leaning up against the hand rail. Now for someone with my bio-mechanic oddness has enough trouble trying to navigate going down stairs at the best of times but in the dark and with no handrail doesn't bare thinking about. alas I have to try and get the bouncers attention so I can get them to move, failing that a gentle prod with the cane does the trick.
Friday, 7 March 2008
The results are in!
Yesterday the results came through for the January exams, in a way I was lucky I only had two exams in January, biology and applied science.
The main point I really want to make her is that I was continually told I was going to fail biology it would be very difficult for me to pass, I was made to feel inferior to the rest of my class, like I didn't deserve to be there. My teacher demoralises me on a regular basis and nothing I can do is right. At parents evening my parents were told it would be very difficult for me to pass, I have a predicted grade of an E and was told I would have to work really really hard to get it.
Naturally all this has made me feel really negative about the subject, it makes me sad to think that I am terrible at my favourite subject. I feel useless, thick and demoralised.
Well I got the result of the January exam and I got a C!
I was so shocked I was walking around college shaking from head to toe in a state of shock!
I got a C in applied science to so it was a good day!
The main point I really want to make her is that I was continually told I was going to fail biology it would be very difficult for me to pass, I was made to feel inferior to the rest of my class, like I didn't deserve to be there. My teacher demoralises me on a regular basis and nothing I can do is right. At parents evening my parents were told it would be very difficult for me to pass, I have a predicted grade of an E and was told I would have to work really really hard to get it.
Naturally all this has made me feel really negative about the subject, it makes me sad to think that I am terrible at my favourite subject. I feel useless, thick and demoralised.
Well I got the result of the January exam and I got a C!
I was so shocked I was walking around college shaking from head to toe in a state of shock!
I got a C in applied science to so it was a good day!
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
I GOT IN!
Today I had an interview, given my issues with anxiety I was shit scared... still hoping for the best but really nervous.
Luckely it went well, it was at southampton solent universicty for there journalism course I was nervious, but I think I covered it well, and best of all I got.... an UN-CONDITIONAL offer!!!!!!!
Which as soon as it comes through on the system I shall be accepting, I'm so glad I got in, I really really wanted to do the course at solent and now I am!
Luckely it went well, it was at southampton solent universicty for there journalism course I was nervious, but I think I covered it well, and best of all I got.... an UN-CONDITIONAL offer!!!!!!!
Which as soon as it comes through on the system I shall be accepting, I'm so glad I got in, I really really wanted to do the course at solent and now I am!
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